Have you ever wondered about the questions that run through your mind?

The other night, I woke up around 2 am and just started writing for the first time in forever. It felt good, but in the long run, it was a short night's sleep. I was able to write a good bit, but then I turned and watched my husband sleep. I watched his breathing from a side view, and that is when the questions came into focus...
How will I deal with the passing of a loved one? How will I handle it and cope? How long does death take to get through? Does the hurt ever go away?  What about the girls?  How will they heal?  When? How?
Will my girls ever find the love like we used to have?  We have had good times and bad times. Doesn't everyone?
What questions do you have that you would like to share?
I Love you, guys.
Ciao for now.


Good evening, everyone. It has been a long time since I have blogged. I am sorry about that. A lot has been going in my life, though.  First off, I was able to get a new vehicle in July. 
And second, we were able to go on a weekend vacation in September for the first time ever (just us and the kids). 
I have still been doing my job, going to dialysis three times a week, taking care of the house when possible, and still doing a lot of running around. It keeps me busy and tired. So please keep ALL dialysis patients in your prayers. I do. You don't realize that the patients have so much that they have to do, so many medicines that they take, and then so many doctor visits that it is crazy. 
Along with my health, I have to deal with the health of my husband, Richard. He has been diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease for about 2 1/2 years now. He has been out of work since December 6, 2016. So, this means that he is home all day, sleeps or watches television, and then repeats this da…

What Path Has God Led You?

Good morning, everyone. I hope that everyone is doing great on this warm Sunday morning.

I am doing okay myself as of right now.

My question for you this morning is this. How do we know if we are on the path that God has led us?

As of right now, I am still not certain what path I am on with God. God has led me to being able to understand a little bit about who I am as a whole.

When I was younger, I never knew what these words would mean to me as an adult. I do know that I am a great communicator with words on paper more so than in public. But, I have gotten to where I can communicate a little bit better in public, though. You see, it wasn't until I was in high school when I started my "writing career". I have written over 45 poems and have four to five unfinished stories since then. It seems that writing is in my path work. So, you see, this is in part to what God has in store for me. What does God have in store for you?

But, the question was, how do you know if you are …

The Letter to My Lord / Friends & Family

Good afternoon, everyone. I hope that you are having a great day so far. It is beautiful outside and a little on the warm side. This is the type of weather that I love, though. I may not be athletic, outdoorsy, or even just one of those people who can't stand being cooped up inside.  

But, the other day, I realized that one of my next blogs would be a letter to everyone. I am telling you this because most of the time, I do not know what I will be writing about. This time, I knew that it would be a letter, but just wasn't for sure about it's content. Please remember that this is a letter that will hopefully help you to understand me and my problems a little bit better.

Dear Lord (& Friends/Family),

I would like to thank you for this beautiful day and the beautiful people that have touched me in so many different ways. Thank you for putting me on this earth that you have created along with all the creatures of the world. The birds, the bees, the flowers, and the trees -- t…

A Few Good Nits & Picks

Good morning, everyone.

Hope you have been having a great weekend getting ready to lead into Holy Week. Luckily for me, I have been having a decent weekend with just a few nits and picks.

I have finally found a new therapist after not having one for well over a year now. I say this because I cannot stay on the Kidney Transplant list without seeing a therapist on a regular basis. My last therapist was a wonderful man. His name was Brian Simpson. The doctor was a reference from my first therapist, also a wonderful doctor (William Varley). You see, I have to talk to a therapist and each one that I have had has left in one way or another. Dr. Varley semi-retired to Florida. Dr. Simpson was a wonderful man who died while working in his yard. A tree fell on him. And now, I have started seeing a very sweet and caring young woman. This will be a first for me. Telling a woman doctor all of my troubles, misgivings, and such. But then again, maybe not. Because as most of my friends and family kn…

It's Been Quite a Year!

Good morning, everyone. I hope you all are doing much better than I am.

I can't believe that it has been 9 months since my last blog entry. I am sorry for that and I hope to remedy that by starting back on blogging more. It has been hectic and mindboggling for me in what I would call my "Chicken with It's Head Cut Off" period.

First of all, I really want you to know that I have wanted to blog, but I feel that it is necessary to help you to understand things. In the nine months that have gone haywire, I have had to deal with my husband being out of work for one-third of that time. His Parkinsons' Disease has gotten more present with the shaking of all parts of his body. The doctor gave him a stronger prescription, has had me take his keys away, and last but not least, he is unable to work anymore. Yes, he will no longer be able to work. So, with this in mind, this brings up the fact that I am the designated driver.

Now, I know that this blog is about me, but somet…

Guilty or Not?

Good afternoon, everyone. I know, I know, I know. It has been about two months since I last blogged. I am sorry for the lack of my blogging.

A lot has been going on with me and my clan. If you can remember, my husband lost his father near Easter time. With Richard being his usual self, it makes it harder on me. And there's not a single thing I can do about it without feeling guilty.

I am saying this all because I feel guilt-ridden about everything that I do or don't do. Lately, I feel guilty because I want a love life and a life full of love. Does this make since? I sure hope so. My husband is dealing with Parkinson's Disease, and I deal with the ramifications of this disease. He never feels like doing anything. (He is not a people person). I am, though. He sleeps most of the day after coming in from working 3rd shift. When he comes in, I leave to head to work. I will leave from work and deal with everything else. (Going to the store, paying bills, cleaning up, etc.)

But, …