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The Letter to My Lord / Friends & Family

Good afternoon, everyone. I hope that you are having a great day so far. It is beautiful outside and a little on the warm side. This is the type of weather that I love, though. I may not be athletic, outdoorsy, or even just one of those people who can't stand being cooped up inside.  

But, the other day, I realized that one of my next blogs would be a letter to everyone. I am telling you this because most of the time, I do not know what I will be writing about. This time, I knew that it would be a letter, but just wasn't for sure about it's content. Please remember that this is a letter that will hopefully help you to understand me and my problems a little bit better.

Dear Lord (& Friends/Family),

I would like to thank you for this beautiful day and the beautiful people that have touched me in so many different ways. Thank you for putting me on this earth that you have created along with all the creatures of the world. The birds, the bees, the flowers, and the trees -- t…

A Few Good Nits & Picks

Good morning, everyone.

Hope you have been having a great weekend getting ready to lead into Holy Week. Luckily for me, I have been having a decent weekend with just a few nits and picks.

I have finally found a new therapist after not having one for well over a year now. I say this because I cannot stay on the Kidney Transplant list without seeing a therapist on a regular basis. My last therapist was a wonderful man. His name was Brian Simpson. The doctor was a reference from my first therapist, also a wonderful doctor (William Varley). You see, I have to talk to a therapist and each one that I have had has left in one way or another. Dr. Varley semi-retired to Florida. Dr. Simpson was a wonderful man who died while working in his yard. A tree fell on him. And now, I have started seeing a very sweet and caring young woman. This will be a first for me. Telling a woman doctor all of my troubles, misgivings, and such. But then again, maybe not. Because as most of my friends and family kn…

It's Been Quite a Year!

Good morning, everyone. I hope you all are doing much better than I am.

I can't believe that it has been 9 months since my last blog entry. I am sorry for that and I hope to remedy that by starting back on blogging more. It has been hectic and mindboggling for me in what I would call my "Chicken with It's Head Cut Off" period.

First of all, I really want you to know that I have wanted to blog, but I feel that it is necessary to help you to understand things. In the nine months that have gone haywire, I have had to deal with my husband being out of work for one-third of that time. His Parkinsons' Disease has gotten more present with the shaking of all parts of his body. The doctor gave him a stronger prescription, has had me take his keys away, and last but not least, he is unable to work anymore. Yes, he will no longer be able to work. So, with this in mind, this brings up the fact that I am the designated driver.

Now, I know that this blog is about me, but somet…

Guilty or Not?

Good afternoon, everyone. I know, I know, I know. It has been about two months since I last blogged. I am sorry for the lack of my blogging.

A lot has been going on with me and my clan. If you can remember, my husband lost his father near Easter time. With Richard being his usual self, it makes it harder on me. And there's not a single thing I can do about it without feeling guilty.

I am saying this all because I feel guilt-ridden about everything that I do or don't do. Lately, I feel guilty because I want a love life and a life full of love. Does this make since? I sure hope so. My husband is dealing with Parkinson's Disease, and I deal with the ramifications of this disease. He never feels like doing anything. (He is not a people person). I am, though. He sleeps most of the day after coming in from working 3rd shift. When he comes in, I leave to head to work. I will leave from work and deal with everything else. (Going to the store, paying bills, cleaning up, etc.)

But, …

Why Things Go the Way They Do

Good evening, everyone. I hope you all are having a great day so far. It has been one wild month already.

I know that it has been close to a month and I am sorry for that. However, I have dealt with numerous doctor's appointments, dialysis treatments three times a week, working every day, going to the store, and then just last week my father-in-law passed away. It was a very emotional time for us. All of last week, though, was like a whirlwind since we were there every day.  
This did bring me to an epiphany of sorts. All this time, I knew that I was here to do the Lord's work. But I did not understand that it was at the heart of our families' sorrow that I would be the one giving a shoulder to lean upon. Whatever I thought before, I know now that I can listen to people with an open heart and then still give an honest opinion.
All in all, everyone has a place here on earth. Please take the time to cherish your loved ones. AND make sure that when you see the sign before you…

Palm Sunday

Good morning, everyone. I hope you all are doing well today. I am doing good so far.

Today is Palm Sunday. Every year, churches have palms to pass out and they sing "Hosanna, Loud Hosanna". This is not just a tradition, but also history.

The truth of the matter is that I AM sad today. Thinking about Palm Sunday has also got me to thinking about the bible story about the people putting down coats and palms on the ground and welcoming Jesus. What about when He left? I would think the same could happen.

You are probably wondering what this has to do with me, right?
Put it this way. If you know me at all, you know that I feel deeply. Well, to put it bluntly, my best friends are leaving town and I am sad about that. They will be moving soon and I will really miss them. To top it all off, another dear friend will be leaving also.

You know, sometimes it's easy to get over. But sometimes, it is not easy at all. And we have to come to grip with the harsh reality of friends coming…

Early Morning Thoughts

Good morning, everyone.
I hope you all are doing well this bright and sunny morning. I am doing as well as I can be this early.

I was just thinking about two dear friends from dialysis who departed from our world recently. This was one of the reasons why I wanted to blog this morning. These two men were quite a pair. One lived life to the fullest and the other was a very quiet gentleman. They made a mark in my life and I will miss them dearly. Here's to all of our departed friends in dialysis.

The other reason for this early morning blog is to tell you about some important dates. These dates are important to me for obvious reasons.

The first date is August 22, 2013. This is important beccause, for one, it's my brother's birthday. The other is that it is the first dialysis treatment date.

The next one is May 15, 2014. A lot of you may already know, but this is the date that I got placed on the transplant list. Hard to believe that it will be two years soon. Wow!

The last da…