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Guilty or Not?

Good afternoon, everyone. I know, I know, I know. It has been about two months since I last blogged. I am sorry for the lack of my blogging.

A lot has been going on with me and my clan. If you can remember, my husband lost his father near Easter time. With Richard being his usual self, it makes it harder on me. And there's not a single thing I can do about it without feeling guilty.

I am saying this all because I feel guilt-ridden about everything that I do or don't do. Lately, I feel guilty because I want a love life and a life full of love. Does this make since? I sure hope so. My husband is dealing with Parkinson's Disease, and I deal with the ramifications of this disease. He never feels like doing anything. (He is not a people person). I am, though. He sleeps most of the day after coming in from working 3rd shift. When he comes in, I leave to head to work. I will leave from work and deal with everything else. (Going to the store, paying bills, cleaning up, etc.)

But, …

Why Things Go the Way They Do

Good evening, everyone. I hope you all are having a great day so far. It has been one wild month already.

I know that it has been close to a month and I am sorry for that. However, I have dealt with numerous doctor's appointments, dialysis treatments three times a week, working every day, going to the store, and then just last week my father-in-law passed away. It was a very emotional time for us. All of last week, though, was like a whirlwind since we were there every day.  
This did bring me to an epiphany of sorts. All this time, I knew that I was here to do the Lord's work. But I did not understand that it was at the heart of our families' sorrow that I would be the one giving a shoulder to lean upon. Whatever I thought before, I know now that I can listen to people with an open heart and then still give an honest opinion.
All in all, everyone has a place here on earth. Please take the time to cherish your loved ones. AND make sure that when you see the sign before you…

Palm Sunday

Good morning, everyone. I hope you all are doing well today. I am doing good so far.

Today is Palm Sunday. Every year, churches have palms to pass out and they sing "Hosanna, Loud Hosanna". This is not just a tradition, but also history.

The truth of the matter is that I AM sad today. Thinking about Palm Sunday has also got me to thinking about the bible story about the people putting down coats and palms on the ground and welcoming Jesus. What about when He left? I would think the same could happen.

You are probably wondering what this has to do with me, right?
Put it this way. If you know me at all, you know that I feel deeply. Well, to put it bluntly, my best friends are leaving town and I am sad about that. They will be moving soon and I will really miss them. To top it all off, another dear friend will be leaving also.

You know, sometimes it's easy to get over. But sometimes, it is not easy at all. And we have to come to grip with the harsh reality of friends coming…

Early Morning Thoughts

Good morning, everyone.
I hope you all are doing well this bright and sunny morning. I am doing as well as I can be this early.

I was just thinking about two dear friends from dialysis who departed from our world recently. This was one of the reasons why I wanted to blog this morning. These two men were quite a pair. One lived life to the fullest and the other was a very quiet gentleman. They made a mark in my life and I will miss them dearly. Here's to all of our departed friends in dialysis.

The other reason for this early morning blog is to tell you about some important dates. These dates are important to me for obvious reasons.

The first date is August 22, 2013. This is important beccause, for one, it's my brother's birthday. The other is that it is the first dialysis treatment date.

The next one is May 15, 2014. A lot of you may already know, but this is the date that I got placed on the transplant list. Hard to believe that it will be two years soon. Wow!

The last da…

In A Week's Time

Good evening, everyone. I hope you all have had a great weekend. It has been a really busy one for me.

I have had three dialysis treatments, three doctor appointments, five days' of work, a family gathering, and a full day trip to and from NC State as of this evening.  This has been the busiest week that I have had in a while. This is still by far almost the weekly normal for me, though. I am so glad to be able to rest right now. As I told Ashleigh, we are going to rest for the rest of the night.

We did manage to get Jessica, my youngest daughter, back to college without any problems. All in all, the trip was a good one.

Gotta go for now, fellow followers.

Caregivers Need Caregiving, Too

Good evening, everyone. I hope that you have had a great weekend. With my weekend being pretty decent, the whole week has been busy as a bee.

It has been a crazy month, though. I have been doing my dialysis, working every day, taking everyone to doctors, taking other family members to grocery store(s), and doing everything else at home. With everything going on with my husband (he has to have cataract surgery and has pre-parkinson's), I can't help but feel like I need some extra shoulders to lean on.

I hope you all know that I try my best to be strong when I am around others. But when I am by myself, I tend to feel like I need someone else to be there and be strong for me. If I am not mistaken, we all have tendencies to be this way.

But when someone is ill and still has to be a caregiver to others, it can take a toll on that person. You see, I am a caregiver to my oldest daughter and to my husband. I have been for a while now. But when I received that one phone call several we…

The Best News Ever

Good evening, everyone.
I hope that you have had a great week.
My week has been dependent on something that happened last Friday.

Some of you may already know, but that is okay. Last Friday, my daughter called me to remind me that I had left my phone at home. There had also been a message left for me to call my transplant coordinater and that it was important for me to call her.

So, when I got the number from Ashleigh, I immediately called mt coordinator back. They had a kidney for me. There was a catch, though. This kidney was a high risk due to the fact that the person had done drugs.  This was not a good thing. I had the option to get the kidney or to turn it down.

I turned it down.

My courageous fellow followers, please take this to heart. Anytime you do drugs, you do not only hurt yourself, but you hurt others, too. If you know someone who does drugs, please help them by getting them help.

I watched a show the other night, and it dealt with this same subject. It really drives hom…

Questioning Myself

Good evening, everyone. Hope you are having a great day. I have had a great "off" day myself.

Today, I woke up to a very beautiful sight outside my window. There upon the ground was a very pretty white layer of snow.

The first thing that I thought of when I saw the snow was "Will I need to go into work to finish the bulletins?" I questioned this because when there's a real bad snow storm, they usually don't have church. So, my question was answered in a matter of seconds. I knew that I would head into work, but at a later time. This worked out wonderfully.

All in all, there was a bright side to this day. My daughter and I spent the day watching a show on Netflix and just taking it easy. Usually, we don't get a chance to do this.

I recommend that you take the time to not rush things and to take the time to see the snowflakes in the snow.

Ciao for now.

Close To Our Hearts

Good evening, everyone. Hope things are going great for you.

Tonight, I want to talk about something that is close to my heart. I know everyone will have something to say about this touchy subject. That's good. I want you to have something to talk about with your family and friends tomorrow.

I recently found out that a dear friend is having to go through chemotherapy for cancer. It makes me wish that I was Jesus and able to heal this friend. For me to say something like this says a lot.

I have not had cancer, but I have had family and friends who have had it. I don't know about you, but I always wonder how in the world cancer got started. How could someone so wonderful have something so awful? Why is there such a thing as cancer? How do we get it? These are just a few of the questions that has come to mind.

Look, we know it's not contagious, but we still act as though we do not know what to say or how to act around our friends or family. But at the same time, we want to d…

I Saw God Today

Good evening, everyone. I hope that your week has started out decent so far. My week has started out great.

With this being the beginning of a new work week, I hope that you can look around and see God everywhere. I see God when I notice the birds singing; hear the crickets chirping; see the grass, trees, and the flowers; and when I hear nature all around us. That is why I can truly say that I see God everywhere every day. Take the time between your day to day schedule and smell the roses. If you don't take the time to smell them, you probably won't even see them.

Just remember that we may not see God in the form of man, but we see all the things that God has created all around us. Just don't let your daily life get in the way of seeing things for what they truly represent.

I also want to say happy birthday to all of my family and friends who are having birthdays this month. May God be with you all and I hope you have many more birthdays to come.

Ciao for now.

Cherished Time & A HUGE Fan

Good evening, everyone. I hope you all have had a great weekend so far.

My weekend was a little more different than usual. My husband and I had made plans to go out on Saturday for our anniversary. He ended up having to stay up half the day and then working on Friday night. Since he was dead tired and my daughter wasn't feeling up to par, I ended up going out to eat by myself.  I enjoyed myself, and tried a new place, Red Lobster. The food was decent but a little too garlicky. For some reason, even though I love garlic, I have not been too fond of it.

Not too much has been going on except for the NFL playoff games.. Other than the fact that the Carolina Panthers will be playing the Seattle Seahawks next week, the Green bay Packers will play the Arizona Cardinals, the New England Patriots will play the Kansas City Chiefs, and the Denver Broncos will play the Pittsburgh Steelers.

I can say for certain that I am a HUGE fan of the panthers. My family gave me some Carolina Panther bedr…


Good evening, everyone. I hope you have had a great week so far. It has been fine here on my end.

Tonight,  I am sitting on my bed watching Dateline as I am typing this blog entry. As of right now, I don't have a subject for this entry.

I do know that I am trying to change things up this year. So, on New Year's Eve, my family and I did our usual....drink a glass of sparkling cider juice as the ball drops down in Times Square in New York. But, unbeknownst to my family, I made a commitment (or as some would say, a promise) under my breath to do a few things. I have committed to move more, to be more organized, and to just be a better me. It was only just this past Monday that I told my daughter these commitments that I made. We have made these commitments together and with the support of each other, I know we can do it.

The thing with this is that it is hard to get motivated even when I have my daughter by my side. You see, we are two peas in a pod. We are a lot alike in way to…

New Year's Resolutions

Good evening, everyone. I hope you have had a great weekend.

I know that I have had a great day since my favorite NFL football team got first seed by defeating the Tampa Bay Buccaneers. Yes, my Carolina Panthers won their final regular season game. This means that the Panthers will get next week off and will have home field advantage throughout their post season games leading up to the Super Bowl.

Other than the games today, my new year has started out decent. My family had our annual  New Year's Day dinner that consisted of black-eyed peas, hog jawls, greens, and cornbread. The dinner was a success. I say this because there were not any arguments of any kind. And I say this strongly...we can have some very heated arguments.

How many of you have made any resolutions? I have made resolutions almost every year for as long as I can remember. But this year, I have made a commitment along with my oldest daughter, Ashleigh, to move more and to get out and do more. We will be taking smal…